On Rare Occasions I'm at a Loss.

It doesn't happen often, but there are times when I just don't know where to begin. I can't seem to find a single word to begin my sentence. But, I'll give it a shot.

In my trolling of online news I came across one of those stories midway down the list of nationwide news. Not a headline or even within the first handful of stories. No, this must be a "filler" story. I'll paste the link at the bottom just in case you want to see the whole thing, what there is of it.

Apparently, a 39 year old mother with depression (hey, I'm almost 39 and I have depression) decided that she'd stab her 2 year old daughter with a pair of scissors. When she was stopped by a security guard, she then tried to strangle her with an electrical cord until she was pulled off of her again. I don't know if I should say that "luckily" the little girl survived because I'm way too much of a pessimist to state that. But, the little girl did survive.

I am horrified, throat-locking-horrified, at the thought of being that two year old little girl looking into her mother's psychotic eyes, seething with a venom that none of us should ever know. I move from horrified to that pit-in-your-stomach-sadness to think that she looked at her mother and screamed in agony, as she felt such pain each and every time that pair of scissors went into her little body. What the hell? Didn't she hear her little girl screaming? I don't care if you didn't take your medicine! I don't friggin' care! Didn't it snap her out of it when she got past the first stab? No? C'mon! I just can't relate! I don't get it, and believe me I have been severely depressed over my lifetime.

But, depression isn't psychotic. Depression isn't something you take out on other people. It's something you direct inward, self-inflicting, if you will. If this is a result of depression then some revisions need to be made to medications, treatments, diagnosis, medical books, etc.

Because, and this is what I find repulsive...this woman, this "mother" has bail set at $100,000. Un-frickin'-believable! Who does this?! Who sets bail for someone so unstable and crazed that they are capable of such atrocities?

Granted, she may not have the cash, but what the hell are we doing? You cannot tell me that we can rest easier tonight knowing that this nation demonizes same-sex marriage and people actually praise George Tiller's murderer (or his profession, for that matter) and Chasity Bono's sex change is making the top of every gossip column. And, I can't even get in to the museum shooter! This, THIS is what we are made of, this wonderful nation of freedom and liberty. Puhleeze!!

I don't want to be this! I don't want to be numb to this ever! I don't want to read a story about a little girl stabbed by her mother and just move on to the next story without crying, not ever! This is not how we should be teaching our kids or anyone's kids to be. We need to be kind and caring and all we seem to grab hold of are the bars that keep us safe from everything beyond our big bay windows. Neighborhood watch as I like to call it. Well, I don't want to just sit and watch during commercial breaks. I want to live in a great big world where little girls aren't stabbed by their mother's. Where there would be no such thing as bail for anyone doing something so horrific.

I don't know where that place is but I just have to believe that we're more than this.

C.

http://www.telegram.com/article/20090611/NEWS/906110665/1101